What I Really Wanted…

What I wanted more than anything that night in May, when I stood on a stage in front of over 200 colleagues and explained to them that I had to leave the organization because I wanted to adopt but the organization had rules against being a single parent, what I wanted was for someone, anyone,…

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Songbirds

In the early morning hours, when the world seems rather quiet, the birds would sing their chorus loud for all to hear. It stood out to me because it was a unique song, after all, I was in a unique country. For two years, while adventuring in Australia, those morning hours were some of the…

Hope

"Hope is like a road in the country; there was never a road, but when many people walk on it, the road comes into existence." - Lin Yutang, based on an older proverb. I've had a difficult time having any kind of hope the past few years. Hope has always seemed like a fairly vague…

Walking the Plank

It feels like walking a plank into a great big turbulent sea of unanswered questions, big crashing waves of pain, and the frigid chill of abandonment. If you are one of the lucky ones, you might be given a small life vest, duct-taped together with bible verses, as if they can help you float. The…

When History and Faith Collide

The unraveling of my worldview seems to be increasingly complex no matter how hard I try to stop the snowball of twine twisting away from the web. Three and a half years have passed since I walked away from Cru and I was convinced that after all this time, I would have my life and…

The Wake of Support Raising

They are all the same, I know because I used to write them. They start with saying that I've been on their mind for months now, wondering how I am doing. They miss me and have such fond memories of our time together. They'd love to catch up sometime soon to really hear about how…

Dear College Freshman

Dear College Freshman, I know you have just moved into the dorms, and a scary and exciting new life lies before you. I want to apologize for taking advantage of your vulnerability and asking you to trust me, a complete stranger, to talk to you about a very personal topic, faith in God. You see,…